I was reading about Nehemiah today. Nehemiah asked the King if he could return to Jerusalem to rebuild the gates and walls that had previously been destroyed. He gathered people to take back with him, and that is what they did. Of course, there was opposition. In the end, though, they all gathered at the walls that had been rebuilt and Ezra read the laws that had been given to Moses and the Israelites.
Do you know what the people did when they heard the laws? They wept bitterly. They suddenly realized that God was revealing something to them that maybe they were hearing with new ears. The people were told not to weep, but to rejoice because this was a day to celebrate for God’s laws had been revealed and Israel was turning back to him.
I couldn’t help but think though of the people mourning. There was some kind of heart change. Some kind of revelation that made it click. And they wept.
Yesterday I told you about being indifferent and struggling with that. Last night my family left to go do some things and I had a chance to just be alone with my thoughts and with God. I reluctantly flipped my Bible over to 1 John 2. I have always loved 1 John 2 because I love the thought of God defending us….defending me. I often feel like I’m defending myself to everyone and that when I was growing up, no one ever came to my defense. So that picture of God being my advocate, the one who fights for me, has always been a picture that comforts me and helps me to focus on Him. It’s very easy for me to see God in the wrong light or as a God that is looking down on me with a huge frown saying, “Why are you so stupid?”
So I read this verse and like the Israelites, it broke me (1 John 2:28-29-ESV):
And now, little children, abide in him, so that when he appears we may have confidence and not shrink from him in shame at his coming. If you know that he is righteous, you may be sure that everyone who practices righteousness has been born of him.
It doesn’t say there, “if you feel that He is righteous”, it says “if you know”. Those 3 words spoke volumes to me. Yesterday I stated how I know that God is good and righteous and just, but I am indifferent. But, I know the truth. I don’t want to focus on the me, either. I want to focus on His goodness and how He has found it in Himself to bless me with knowledge that is just too good for me. And because He is good, I can know the truth even if I do not feel it and act out in faith because of that truth.
I’ve read that passage a thousand times, but like the Israelites, hearing it again and hearing those 3 simple words changed me. This passage also reminded me that we are not meant to just talk to God once in awhile. It says “abide in Him”. That is a moment by moment relationship, not a “when I feel like it” relationship. I have to admit I certainly struggle with that. It’s hard to go to God when we feel like such utter failures, at least I feel that way. I love this quote, which I will end with, by Paul Tripp:
True righteous only begins when you come to the end of yourself.
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